So, I was talking to this person in the library today, and I just kind of assume everyone knows I have a baby because its high school, right? Well, apparently this person didn't know somehow, and I brought Telesa up I think I said "my daughter" or something to that effect and he just kind of looked at me stunned and confused. Then I got confused because hello, who doesn't know I have a baby in this school? It really threw me off guard.
He was all "What?" and I was all "yeah I have an 8 month old..." and hes like "whoa why'd you have a baby so EARLY:"
He was all in shock and I was all thrown off that he didn't know and just his general shock. I muttered and mumbled but couldn't really figure out what to say. I mean I know I had her young but I'm really happy about it and I'm not used to people referring to her as "sucky". Its not like my grandpa just died, no need to bring out the "s" word.
It REALLY threw me off if I didn't make that clear enough, I just said something about how she was a good thing and got me on the right path or something, because that's all I could think of to say at my time of extreme-off-throwness (that's so not a word, I realize this, but we can pretend).
Now I kind of want to go back to him and be like "I love my daughter more than I even knew was possible and she makes me happier today than I have ever been in my entire life. She gives purpose to my life and a reason to be a good person. Being a young mom is the hardest and most rewarding thing I have ever done and is the furthest thing from "sucky" I can think of." or something along those lines.
I really hate being thrown off like that.
Monday, June 9, 2008
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Those first two years of single motherhood, I was thrown off all the time, too... I couldn't even tell people that I was a single mom, the internal shame was so great. You are WAY ahead of me!
I love hearing your pride. Keep practicing what you'd say to a stranger -- and one day, you'll just blurt it out!
By the way, I'm finally adding you to my Blogroll!
I'm twenty two and I still get that on a regular basis.
I guess I look younger than I am because I usually respond with the fact that I'm 22 and can make the decision to raise a child if I'd like to and I just get dirty looks and "sure you are". I just never know exactly what to say. It never fails to catch me off guard.
After the question about my age, they ask if I'm married (I'm not), then ask if I'm still with his dad (I never was), ask if his dad sees him (just met him) as if it was any of their business to begin with!
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